Back to reality...

Santa and Mrs. Claus had a fabulous time in San Diego. Our room was just outside the ocean and I feel asleep each night to the waves crashing. I LOVE LaJolla!! Unbelieveable homes and landscaping. It is very expensive though. We just might make this an annual trip around this time of the year. Back at home, all is fine. Shawna is going to AA with a friend guy that has several years of soberity. Seems to be a good influence and considerate. I'm always skeptical initially, wonder why??? LOL Will be celebrating with family on Jan 1, 2010. Good food, gifts, music and just plain fun. I think the trip rejuvenated us. Whew!! We needed it...

Catching up...

Exchanging gifts today with Lee's mom. Shawna cannot get into the treatment facility until the 10th!!!!!!!!!!!! Big disappointment but what else is new. It's been 6 days and still sober. She is going the AA on her own without encouragement. I think she realizes that her dad and I have had it. It just is too much at our age and or age, as far as that goes. The dr. talked to us privately and said, "Number ONE, you two cannot fix this!" and "Number TWO you are angels." Lee and I looked at each other and Lee says, " I've never been called an angel before." I don't know why God has chosen us to go through this in the last six years BUT I can say it has made us a much stronger couple and our love deeper than deep. After 34 years it's just amazing how we still feel so strongly for each other. AND we're both fixers!!! so must back off on this one.
Looking forward to the beach on Christmas morning and church in SanDiego. It will be a welcome change. Blessings to ALL!!!

Long day. . . .

After 40 hrs in the ER , Shawna was discharged to a detox facility and a 30 day treatment program in Yavapai County. It's become a HUGE mess of course. She has AHCCCS - up here her insurance is Bridgeway, in Maricopa it's Mercycare. Sooooo if she goes to Marp. she loses the benefit up here which is much better. Counselor, classes, AA meetings, etc. Anyway, tomorrow at 10AM we're suppose to call YavapaiWest to see if there is an opening and bring her down. She appears 1,000% better, of course, sober now. Says she'll never drink again because she remembers seeing figures and hitting the floor. OH! her hip is okay, just bruised, very lucky not broken. She is more than willing to go and is giving us no grief. We told her she cannot continue to live with us IF she doesn't change. We do mean it this time, no exceptions or excuses. She is being very nice. Tomorrow is another day and right now, it's literally one day at a time!!!!!

Rough Weekend!!

It seems that I never, ever get a break. The big "D" is looming in the background. Shawna is back in the hospital for the 13th time in 2 years for alcohol. We took her in yesterday after a friend brought her home to us. She left the hospital AMA. Sooooooo this morning, Lee heads back to Phoenix and she gets up and has a gran mal seizure and I'm by myself!!!!!!!!!!! When I called 911 I was so frightened I could hardly talk except my address. She had no eyes, bleeding from the mouth and like a fish out of water. She was taken by ambulance toYavapai and her BAC was 475!!!!!!!!!!!!! The dr. said in 20 years he had seen that 4-5 times in a female. It's fatal!! I am absolutely beside myself. Called Lee back. She is currently still in ER until stable. ??? The will be transferred again to detox facility and then again to a 30 day rehab. IF!!!! she agrees. She is an adult and actually I have NO CONTROL over her decisions according to the counselor. I am emotionally, physically and mentally drained and can barely get into bed. Need to be back to ER at 8AM for the decisions. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!! Sorrry for the vent but it's my blog.